||[Mar. 24th, 2009|02:19 am]
for the first time in my time here, as i stumbled drunkenly home from the sovereign after some drinks with the townie people that i've come to know and love ...|
... i felt as if i really lived here. the el rumbled overhead as i passed under the red line. a creepy homeless dude mumbled to me as i crossed the street and gave him some change. some drunk loyola students bumped me as i careened towards my apartment.
i looked up at the skyscrapers around me and realized ... this is my city. i live here. i'm not visiting, i'm not touring, and i'm certainly not vacationing.
i live in one of the best cities in the world and i love it. i cannot believe that i've made it this far with so many doors open in front of me.
the iO theater is fantastic. i cannot wait to start taking classes there. i hit the improv scene every wednesday (BECAUSE ITS FREE!!!! WOO!) and watch what they do -- i can DO THAT. i know i can. i can't wait to.
tonight, i met one of the stage managers at the chicago shakespeare theater and took shots with her. she ASMed the production of amadeus that i saw in november when i was up here (!!!!!!!!!!!!).
i've never felt so invigorated in my entire life.
i miss certain things in tuscaloosa, mostly (if not entirely) certain people. i miss my best friends, more than anything. if there is anything i wish this city had, i wish it had people already in place for me to confide in, to trust, and most importantly, to love.
- austin and julia ... i miss you both more than you will ever know.
- the beer is SO MUCH BETTER up here, and we can drink it on SUNDAYS (holy crap).
- i really feel like i'm on the right course. for once in my life.
i also realized that i don't care about bullshit drama anymore. when you're alone in a city full of people, and you only know perhaps 1-4 people in said city, you kind of realize that its time to grow up.
when you graduate, when you get free of the college world, your life is in your hands. all the shit you dealt with before doesn't matter. i've never gotten more writing done in my whole LIFE than i have in the past three weeks. i have an appointment with an awesome headshot photographer in a few weeks. my resume is down pact. my monologues are solid.
this is my life now, and i'm so excited that's its finally begun.
(ps, to all you current college students, GRADUATE NOW. you will love it. trust me.)
(pps. battlestar galactica is a great show.)